What Went Wrong

 What really went wrong?

I've given them my all
Wrote a thousand dedication poems
Sang countless karaoke songs
Spent most of my time with them
Given up my heart and my soul
Even forgot about going home
Shown them utmost respect, yet, 
Abandonment is what I always beget
Where did I go wrong?
Why people won't stay long?
Why every happy but fluky bond
Slips out of my calloused fingers
As fast as these pale white sand
Can't unravel what I lack
This self-reflection thing
Has cost me everything,
And left me stolid with nothing
I am usually stabbed in my back
After perching on my sanity
Every good deed died in their memories
After alleviating their burdens
I'm always left with blank queries
Where did I go wrong?
People just come and go
In and out of this monotonous cycle
Where the friends in my circle
Just pass by like some stranger
Stealing your credence like a thief
Before you know it, boom! 
You only have yourself.
Qu'est ce qui ne s'est pas bien passe~
I'm in a situation where progress
Is impossible-- impasse. 
No, don't get me wrong--
I don't feel resentment or anger
I just learned to grip myself a bit
And stand alone on my own feet.